A cloudy day,warms my heart.

Hurt my left hand and right foot tonight. Hand, from throwing shit in the kitchen about like a fucken phyco. And foot from punching it. Pisst off all weekend. Completely broke. Feeling like giving up on my paths. Not happy in the relationship. Bf wants to be fat and isn’t supportive what so ever :( he doesn’t care how I feel. :(

blah.

So my boss rings me up and asks me in a really upset voice “hey just letting you know…well I mean I’m telling you that were broke so..um is it okay if you don’t come into work tonight! (Before I could say anything he asked “are you feeling alright? Are you sick today!) I was confused and said I was fine. And ‘re asked him what he was saying. He replyed and asked if I was okay with having the night off. I said yes right away. Because I dislike my job and thought a night off would be great. Now I’m thinking…. sounds like might getting sacked. Or in there words going back to casual, which really sucks. I NEED to night another job. Rather a day time one. If not one that doesn’t fuck me around like this one dose.
Over the bullshit. I got bills to pay. Rent. And no bloody centrelink. So I’m completely broke till I get another job. Bs.

So sleepy. Tonight I’ve watched two births. Omg. The amount of blood that comes out. Pain. And the amount of everything else. Makes me nauseous just watching it. Been so clucky for months now. It’s annoyingly natural (apparently)

2014- I WILL BE UNDER 100kg.

So bloody tired gahhhhhh.

Feeling kinda shitty today.

Hiding it thou.
Blah. Tired as.

got to do this!

At least before winter rolls in. Thou that’s in like 2 weeks. Not going to starve myself thou. But winters going to be completely tempting and crazy.
Clean eating and Working out, ‘re-starting it again, kinda fell off track last week, tomorrow’s Thursday got cheap yummy sales at Cole’s, here I come! Low budget this week, 40 backs to spend of food! Got stupid centrelink to pay. And internet bill too. Shitty hours at work. Got to get up and get a new job. Hoping day shifts. Nights suck so much! In need for 8-10hrs shift not the shitty 3hr night shift.

Today has been a lovely day. Had these amazing chops for lunch.
There was this real rude man that almost knocked me over. Plus he shouted at this man who was in a wheelchair, and verbly abused the waitress. Complete dick. Went Asian snack shopping. Got a can of orange pineapple and banana soda which was green and from Taiwan. It was a yummy treat indeed. I don’t normally drink soda. Can’t stand the feeling when it goes down my throat. Burny feeling. Um, talked about renting houses. And SP’s big date tomorrow! Happy for him.

Can not wait for food shopping buying frozen mangos! Because they aren’t in season and if they were they’d be super expensive.

Goals till July:
1) look for new day jobs.
2) loose 3kgs.
3) buy new joggers (saw some cute blue ones at rivers today)
4) Don’t give up!
5) keep calm, drink heaps of water, relax laugh and sweat!